Old flames
So...as unbelievable as it is I do have a heart. And yes once upon a time an angelic soul stole it after living together for two years.(dumped me)
More or less that happened 30 years ago (plus some months, weeks and days but whose counting) Last contact was some 18 years ago.
Now and then I'd drop an email "hi hope you well etc." is all I SWEAR!!!
Several weeks back had (yeah drunkenly directed a youngster for help in said heart stealers specialist field)
Realised huge shit storm approaching if youngster contacts heart thief without knowing whats what....potentially a huge BOMB!!!
Youngster knows lots of mutual people who don't know the history of said heart thief.
And so dropped an email apologising to heart thief and giving a heads up saying "so and so is gonna contact you and" ... again apologised etc.
No reply.
Sent a rather detailed personal letter private and confidential to her company. No bollox like "undying love" just said thank you, our sling shot journey changed me loads for the better.
Y'know good stuff.
Still no reply.
So last night wrote her reply to me for her in jovial format laughing at me etc etc
Am trying to be charming and jovial and light hearted but more so "grown up."
Wished them the best. A bit of a star in their field so said I couldn't be happier or more proud for them . Ended with saying I'm not sure you getting these emails or but the briefest of words even if "yes got them all. Please stop bothering me."
Still no reply.
I can't telephone. (violins at ready) I have a terrible stammer under stress. There said.
Said person are alive. Checked the company's Twitter and still tweeting tweets.
Help us with this puzzle fazies
If there was no memories or emotions involved y'know I'd take a massive shit on them, but...
More or less that happened 30 years ago (plus some months, weeks and days but whose counting) Last contact was some 18 years ago.
Now and then I'd drop an email "hi hope you well etc." is all I SWEAR!!!
Several weeks back had (yeah drunkenly directed a youngster for help in said heart stealers specialist field)
Realised huge shit storm approaching if youngster contacts heart thief without knowing whats what....potentially a huge BOMB!!!
Youngster knows lots of mutual people who don't know the history of said heart thief.
And so dropped an email apologising to heart thief and giving a heads up saying "so and so is gonna contact you and" ... again apologised etc.
No reply.
Sent a rather detailed personal letter private and confidential to her company. No bollox like "undying love" just said thank you, our sling shot journey changed me loads for the better.
Y'know good stuff.
Still no reply.
So last night wrote her reply to me for her in jovial format laughing at me etc etc
Am trying to be charming and jovial and light hearted but more so "grown up."
Wished them the best. A bit of a star in their field so said I couldn't be happier or more proud for them . Ended with saying I'm not sure you getting these emails or but the briefest of words even if "yes got them all. Please stop bothering me."
Still no reply.
I can't telephone. (violins at ready) I have a terrible stammer under stress. There said.
Said person are alive. Checked the company's Twitter and still tweeting tweets.
Help us with this puzzle fazies
If there was no memories or emotions involved y'know I'd take a massive shit on them, but...
Comments
i dunno, this sounds like maybe they are avoiding replying for whatever reason. or that they simply aren't getting the messages/mail. i guess you just want a reply of any kin, right?
It sounds like, if they get them, they don't want to communicate, for whatever reason justified (in their minds) or not and it's the kind of stuff that's likely to be winding you up (to what good effect?! ) and not them.
If they are ignoring you, and can't be arsed responding to that last comment (even if just to say sod off), do you really want them in your life, virtually or not, at the periphery or not!?!
I once got an auto out of office notification so not blocked or going to spam I guess.
^C
just as you say any reply. Even just two words second one "off" would be awesome!
But because of the details outlined in the personal letter...it's left me feeling uneasy. Same letter had no proclamations of undying love etc just what went on to supply info I never discussed with them as a couple. Why I was rude, destructive and abrasive. Nature V Nurture. Their background super rich, privileged and educated. Me...not so much LOL
Thanking them for putting up for as long as they did. That the break up, with hindsight, actually helped me become a better person...thanking them for aligning me for good doesn't even come close.
Even wished them "May trouble continue to neglect you and may angels continue to protect you and yours."
No bad blood whatsoever.
^P
they used to be so...caring and kind hence my confusion.
They underwent serious surgery when we were a couple. Absolutely life threatening. I spent every day at the hospital.
Was there for them before, during and after. I actually don't want them in my life (now) After break up for first ten years or so absolutely. But now because of my enthusiasm to help and good intention galloped away with my words...
I just want to make peace. Pointed out not exploiting my association with them etc
If they wanted yeah maybe be friends if needed but I don't envisage them involved in my life at all now. I just wanted to show some manners, gratitude and respect for the sake of universal friendship re directing the youngster to them.
But this silence...WTF!?
Extra xxx's my lovelies
The world is so full of people, even with the history, when this kind of thing happens you need to just move on. Don't beat yourself up for another second.
There could be so many reasons why they aren't replying that actually don't have anything to do with you at all...like a current situation in their relationship, for instance.
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xxx's my fazies
Also, great engineering blog, BW!